A secret.. I need your opinion..huhu..

Okay.. I know.. lately I have posted lots of love post.. owh.. why?.. ya.. I think I’m In love.. in love with someone that may not know that I love her.. huhu… we met last year in Facebook.. july… at first when she added me.. I felt kind of different feeling.. I don’t know why.. huhu.. but I just keep it as my inner feelings.. then.. around December.. after all the msg in fb and chatting ..almost everyday.. I admit my feeling to her.. but ya.. thank God that my feeling is not that hard… not so strong… still,, hot that “feeling”.. and she say lets be friend first.. okay.. I understand..but she asked me not to stop sms n call her like before… maybe I am not her type.. fat and not handsome like others she met..haaha..but my feeling for her is true…

Then, we be so close… we sms everyday. Call everyday.. and I was thinking.. whats the point of me doing ths if she don’t like me.. as if I am the one who desperate wants her love… our relationship is like couple..as we call n sms..and express feelings.. but we are not couple!!??... am I being played or am I love her too much till I sacrifice my feeling to be with her… huhu.. I asked my friend.. my friend asked me to asked her whether she is playing with me or have feelings for me.. my friend asked me to let her go.. cos… they think that she will never love me… I think a lot bout ths matter…

Huhu.. last Monday I think, I told her bout ths matter.. I want to know.. who am I actually in her life… and she say.. “if u r only a friend?’.. I was like… huhu… and I told her that how my friend react when I told about my situation to them.. I told her that our situation here is like couple.. but we are not couple.. u get what I meant?... I am wondering.. who am I really to her.. its getting so complicated.. I love her very much… huhu.. I would do anything to her…. She cried… I was like… owh.. I’m sorry if I did wrong, its just my friend opinion.. I told her… huhu. I don’t want to hurt her… but the question of who am I to her still remain a mystery.. that I also donnoe.. who am I really to her.. ahh.. I want an answer.. I don’t want to give hope to someone who don’t ever love me…. I do love her so much.. but… ah.. a lot of but…

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That’s my story.. what’s ur opinion my blogger’s friend?.. I am I a dilemma.. huhu.. I love her so much but I donno where’s my place in her heart.. huhu… now.. ths is not a secret anymore.. hu..