i am seriously sorry

i am sorry if i did wrong.. i am not a perfect person..am i a good someone to u?... sorry....

Miss Russia 2010

ada ala2 model x?.

hahha.. pelik kan that title.. haha.. how do i know who will win for miss russia 2010!.. haha.. well.. i am actually talking bout my friend... wandaoxana federova haha.. namanya ya.. hehe.. well namanya sebenar walter ding but people call him wanda jak.. haha.. ths guy so pelik plus differnt, plus very funny, plus suka tidor.. haha..haha.. nya tok.. if he ever open his mouth to speak.. all the words will turn to jokes.. hahaha.. i also donnoe why... we all sometimes called him miss korea kos we sometimes dont understand what he is talking about!!!!.. he likes to sing a lot.. hahaha.. n yes he is very friendly!!. haha.. nya tok.. asal kuar jak mesti makeup..hehehe.. wajib makeup ya.. haha... yet he is talented too.. taking graphic in unimas... hope ny arajin jak lah..hehehe...

well, i am open to all kind of friends!!!,,... so, for me its ok to be friend with different kind of people as we will know how they actually feel.. heheh..

me with miss russia!

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MAKUM tarian 2008

So bored today!! cannot sleep and i miss someone.. so.. i browsed through my pic folder and i found tha makun 2008 folder... owh!!. it really pull my mind to the memories back then when it all happen... iyes.. unimas was the host for 2008!!.. hehe.. MAKUM pertandingan tarian 2008 i s actually a competition between university in malaysia..hehe.. and i am one of the AJK!!!.. hehe. i was assign to jaga group from UKM!!!.. but befor that i contribute a lot to USM cos they came 1 day earlier than UKM... i even rent them my own car n be their tour guide in kchng!!..hahaa.. and they pay me!!.. lol.. hehehe,.. rezeki bah.. tambang minyak n sewa keta gik..hehehe


with UKM i really had a great moment with them.. they are like friends to me.. not like some other uni, where they alieanated the AJK assign for their group!!. UKM students are so friendly!!. seriously!!..haha.. we share lots of things togetehr.. some of them even gave me present at the end of the day.. though they did'nt win... they still got the experience they will never forget here in UNIMAS!!!

serikin!!!

me, zul n hambali!

owh i really love serikin!!. do u guys know where is serikin??..haha.. kat bau nun!!!.. lom masok sempadah indonesia.. mun kat tebedu dah masuk sempadah indonesia.. well... haha.. why i love serikin..

• firstly.. is the barang2 yang jual kat cya.. vrieties of things!!. from perabot, seluar. baju. carpet, semua ada.. macam2 ada jak.. hehe..
• scondly is the price!!!.. owh!!!. so cheap!!. i bought a LV bag for only 40 ringgit.. bargain it from 60 i think!!!... hahaha.. of coslah not ori!!... hehehe..
• thirdly is banyak orng kat cya..(bukan i minat banyak orng), just that macam u can see banyak gelagat manusia cya bah.... ada nok cuba bargain dari 30 ke 5 ringgit.. logik x.. haha.. kedakya bah.. hehe..
• forthly the weather.. mun kat ctok!!. better u guys bring along ur caps or whatsoever!!.. haha.. its very hot here.. ya biasanya banyak orng pegi pagi...
• fifthly...apa owh.. hahah.. owh ya.. i got ths very swet moments here in serikin!!!!.. that time i wanna buy a shirt from sigek kedai cya.. then tengahg2 i pilih he suddenly told me that " abang ni ganteng lah!!" hahahahaa..i was like so happy that time( dalam hati lah).. xkan tunjuk!!!..hahaha.. ok picture time!

777,.444,111,33

owh today i always sees same number combination..

777=is the no of people who viewed my blog
444= no of emails i recieved ths morning.. 2 days since i update my emails
= the time now!!!
111= the time i always get when i check the watch!!

33= no of msgs by my love one in my hp (now it stated there at the screen it has no enough memory!!.need to delede all!!.my hp is just a simple phone..just basic sms n call!!..

any reason for that!!. haha.. maybe its just a coincident!!!.. still... it gives me a goose bumps thinking of it!!!

my PC is okay now!!

thanks to Efffa my pc is back serving its master!! haha.. right after it back to normal i 've changed the wallpaper..haha... well..u guess who!!?? lol.. well... just spent a little time at lab today .. about 3 hours.. just wanna clean the mess i left last 2 weeks!!..hahaha.. okay.. another post is coming up!!

haha.. funny video of mine...

haha.. last nite i went to wanda's room as he asked for my help in blogging!!.. haha.. well, i told him that i would like to post a video in my blog.. haha.. well ths is my first video.. well ignore all the "kek".. n how i talk.. haha.. my intonation n how i speak is different when i talk to them(my ladyboy friend).. haha.. okies.. owh about my voice.. i just made it out.. bukan my true voice ya..hahaha plus.. sorry naza.. saya main2 je ok...

My apartment--spring cleaning!!!..

hehehe.. well today i told hisyam that i want to clean the house.. he agreed to help me ... so we cleaned the house at 5 .pm. only both of us.. then, one of our housemate deburn, asked us do we need some help.. owh we are happy as now more hand will makes the job done faster!!... heheh.. then.. i told hisyam that we need to make rules like last sem .. no shoes or slipper allowed... just put it at the shoe rack.. hehe.. and i told hisyam to tell other housemates.. since hisyam is the eldest in the apartment.. hehe..

i asked hisyam to tell the others to clean the toilet at the front of the house.. We had such a great time cleaning the house.. even my room looks different now... hehehe.. i put a rubber carpet(checker black and white) to cover the bare floor... hehe... ok.. some pics to share!!.

my boo...(superhuman-chris brown feat keri hilson)

ths song is for u..just wanna say.. i love u!!

Weak
I had been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I could barely speak?
Barely eat, on my knees

But that's the moment you came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see through the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love

I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you

Superhuman
I feel so superhuman
Superhuman
I feel so superhuman
Superhuman

Strong
Since I been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I had it all along
I can see tomorrow

Where every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see
How love can set me free

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love

I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you

Superhuman
I feel so superhuman
Superhuman
I feel so superhuman

It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going gone away
My only weakness is you, only reason is you
Every minute with you I feel like I can do anything
Going, going I'm gone away! Love!

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love

I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you

Superhuman
Superhuman

my sunday!! ranchan n spring!!

owh !!!!. it was my best sunday's ever.. we had a packed day with activities that i really enjoy... with nature..... hehe.. ya.. i really love nature.. feels like wanna stay tepi pantai jak rasa.... huhu.. ok.. we pegi Ranchan Pool that day. kat serian.. Serian is my kampung tauk x... my father side is iban and my nenek still kat serian.. tapi x sempat melawat..

a lot of people ada kat ranchan that day.. including ths one stupid guy.. hurm why he is stupid??.. hurm.. he took pic of my friends using hp and he ashik2 tengok my friends boobs!!!. ya boobs!!. rasa nak terajang jak..but its ok.. my friend tauk but nya x duli.. just ignore them.. i like some of the kids.. yang lompat2 dari bukit ya.. suka nagga ..cdak terjun dari bukit masuk dalam sungai ya.. huhu.. hehe.. pasya ada ths guy pake suar dalam jak mandik.. dah gik suka nagga2 susu orng.. ayo.. umor dah 50 kalik.. huhu.. mana2lah.. tapi we really had a good time there.. took a lot of pics... jessie n kris prepared some sandwiches.. me n iggy bought junk food n drinks.. hehehe..

then after we went back unimas jessie plan to go to spring.. so yes we went to spring despite kekepakan yang belaku... i balit bilik and i changed my clothes.. hurm.. we went out to frydays first for our dinner.. hurm.. i just can say that i am not satisfied with frydays.. well,, lotof thngs need to be improved

then we pegi spring.. shopping.. but i dont buy anything..hahaha.. xda duit!!. jimat lok!!..

me with fake boobs!!!

serian town!!!.. my grandma house is just 4 kilometer from town

ranchan pool!!!. nice kan!!sexy kan my pose???ala2 lesbian bah!!asa cute jak!!wah.. posing!!gemoknya kaki!!!me n my friends!!

my computer broke down!!!

huahuahua.. my computer ada problem lah.. i really hope nya ok soon. nak beriknya restlok.. huhu... suddenly my screen jadi kosong.. nasib i know how to use short cuts using keypad tok..huhu...gambar atas ya my pc screen before rosak.. now semua dah gone.. just the wall papaer jak ada.. huahuahua.. steven!!!. help me!!!

fikirlah by aizat

such a nice song aizat!!. love the song so much dear.. haha.. n tell me the secret to kurus!!!!!..huahuahua

Lirik Lagu Fikirlah - Aizat AF5

Benarkah salahku, lepaskan kamu
Kau duga egoku, fahami diriku begini
Tiada yang sama
Yang pasti kita semua bebeza
Kau fikirlah

Chorus
Tiada guna cipta sebuah cerita
Kalau kisah kita sementara
Rasa hati dan langkahmu
Membuat aku keliru

Tiada guna kita menderita
Sungguh semua tidur pun tak lena
Rasa hati dan katamu
Tak lagi seperti dulu

Kita pernah satu, aku dan kamu
Dulu itu dulu, masih di dalam ingatanku
Kini berbeza
Namun masih ku harap kau bersedia
Oo mungkinkah, kau temu bahagia

Lepaskan semua mimpimu
Tangis dan juga sayumu
Kau fikirlah

Tiada guna cipta sebuah cerita
Kalau kisah kita sementara
Rasa hati dan langkahmu
Membuat ku keliru

Tiada guna kita menderita,
Sungguh semua tidur pun tak lena,
Rasa hati dan katamu
Tak lagi seperti dulu

Sungguh semua tidur pun tak lena
Rasa hati dan katamu
Tak lagi seperti dulu

Aku keliru
Aku keliru

one week in one post

• well, i am sorry for not updating ths week.. hehhe.. so busy with my work and lots of activities i need to attend.. ok.. last wednesday kawan ajak makan kat cafe bulat cempaka... makan n then sempat agik gambar2... then at night we gi persembahan konsert bayu at CTF 2 dk.. hurm.. it was boring.. to be honest but its ok.. still baru n a lot of improvements need to be done ok...
• then.. on thursday ,, it was a tired day.. kmk tertidor lewat and so i woke up late.. but i have class at 8... so escape.. then, my friend called telling me ada assgnmnt need to pass up before. 5... so, dengan pantasnya i walked to faculty and kmk polah assgnment ya.. habis juak last2... hehe. steven n imran also x datang kelas tek..
• then at night ziana called. ajak jalan2 makan with adilla.. adilla ambik n we makan kat celebrity cafe with ziana adilla and imran.. then, ada my crush called me..mok ajak kuar... haha... i told him kmk makan kat celebrity cafe tok.. nya agak cya juak.. makan with us.. then ziana ajak tengok wayang.. kmk ok jak.. mana.. so, kmk ikot my crush n the others ikot dilla.. jumpa kat star cineplex.. samapi cnun..my mood nak tengok wayang hilang.. so kmk balit with my crush
• btw my crush tok i alah orng yang kmk pernah ada crush dolok bah.. waktu 1st sem.. now dah jadi best buddies dah..haha.. lam keta my kawan tok tek mala jak polah lawak.. tetak jak2 kmk olehnya..then nya ajak gi mcD... nya tanyak kmk mok makan apa2 x?... kmk kata no.. boleh x????!!!!.. kmk sebenarnya maok tapi ala2 malu bah... so he bought me sundae...heheh
• then.. on friday sama jak... sama boring day.. and then at 5, my father pick me up.. but that time i am busy n missing someone(on9 bah that time)... so.. paksa jaklah menuinggalkan chat without any msg reply.. owh..huhu. sorry dear... balit rumah..xda line digi!!. owh.. i was like semua x dapat.. makan x da mood.,, tido pun tengok hp jak2... gcya g ctok...mala jak fikir halya.. hurm.. i am crazy.. yes.. i know!!..
• thank God bapak kmk hantar balit the next day .. saturday.. my sis birthday on saturday... so celebrate kat KFC!!. hehehe.. happy birthday nur jasmin.. i love u so much!!!. dah besar adik kmk.. huhu.. 12 thun dah...huhu... owh before that, my uncle from sungai petani kedah datang melawat kat umah.. hehe.. my nenek pun datang..heheheh....
• ok.. that nite juak.. suddenly tetiba jak call ziana my friend ajak kuar.. and yes she agreed. n i called imran too.. ajak jalan2... so,, they took me kat unimas... kmk orng gi Gig kat uitm ya.. kat kolj mulu..!!! memang happening for us.. unimas student cos mun battle kat unimas tok.. banyak limit bah.. huhu... kat cnun happening.. sambutan pun rami orng datang..hahah.. then.. abis show, we lepak kat mcD.. hehehe.. kenyang nok mampus jak rasa... then.. imran ajak limpas Grappa.. hahaha.. agik kosong grappa that nite.. dahlah ada lakiya kencing depan2 kmk orng..haha.. ziana hide at my back.. x mok tengok benda ya!!> huahuahua..
• then, my boo msg me asking me apa polah kmk.. kmk kata kmk odw ke grappa tok.. mok nagga jak.. hehe.. and boo told me that boo is at bunda cafe.. hahaa.. so... abuis jak tengok2 grappa.. kmk suruh kwan kmk lalu kat bunda cafe.!!! haha.. and yes i saw nya.. ngegehnya ya.. rasa winter sonata jak!!!.haha.lol..n yes.. we msg'g each other sampai kol 2am okay.. haha.. imiss nya so much lah.. and last nite adalah kmk callnya lebih kurang 30 minutes.. lawak bahnya n nya really makes my day!!!.. harapnya dah bangun now!!!.

jealousy

owh.. usually dolok kmk salu dengar gerek orng jeles mun nagga bf or gf nya kuar with someone else.. i was like.. perlu kah jealous.. give him space lah.. nya pun perlu ngan kawan juak... kawan n pasangan berlainan bah.. but ya.. i still now believed its true.. tapi.....

now..........i knoe.. how perasaan gerek ya tek if nya lihat gereknya kuar with someone else... kmk percaya the feeling of jealousy sometimes good to us.. dari cya we really knoe that does he or she really loves us... am i experiencing the samething now..
ya..to tell you the truth... maybe nya baca my post or x baca tapi kmk still love nya n miss nya and will always be!!..does nya really loves me.. i donno but all i can do is hope!!... hurm....

now all i need is to handle my jealousy rite?...

Steps

1. Understand the emotions. Jealousy is a combination of fear and anger: fear of losing something and anger that someone is "moving in on" something that you feel belongs only to you.
2. Allow yourself to actually 'feel' emotions in a healthy way.
   
3. Communicate your feelings.
   
4. Identify what your jealousy is teaching you.
   
5. Change any false beliefs that might cause jealousy.
   

owh only a short post from me.. i am now gonna be offline till sunday!...

A post for u my boo!!!.

i just wanna say i love u so much!!!

ths song is dedicated to u:

What is Love without sex??... no sex no love??

hurm.. ths was the question my friend saidin asked me during our dinner.. hurm.. it really made me thinking.. ada yang betul apa kata saidin tu.. but for me.. it all depends on the individual itself.. ths is dubjective... for me... in my opinion...

• ok, i've been in a relationship few times.. the first one was when i was in hilton working there as a waiter.. so,, someone asked me if i could be bf to nya.. i was like so in cloud 9 that time.. it was my first time but to be honest , i am still x tahu why nya choose me?... hurm.. i am that time very fat(11Kg's), and xda orng minat me... hurm.. awkward... so, i asked nya kenak nya choose me?.. well, nya tol me that i am not like other guys yang suka kaconya.. n we declared our r/ship kat star cineplex!!. hehehe.. n we hold hand sepanjang movie ya!!.
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• second was in matrix life.. , i still donno nya pun status.. a friend or a lover.. nya was a very good a friend of mine.. and i had a crush on nya.. maybe nya x tauk but ya, ada something between us when we were at sabah together.. hehe....
• 
  
• third was in unimas.. but nya ran away with someone.. hurm.. still appreciate it though!..

well, ada gik before2 ya but i dont want to post it here...

• the first one is the best one i had so far cos i told nya that i dont want u to like me for sex!!.. n nya kata i like u cos of the way u are.. nya call kmk everynite n sms me too.. hurm.. sampai i say stop.. n i want a break n space.. nya pun ok jak....
• 
  
• second one is also great as nya very kind.. nya very kind to me...we had a great time at sabah together.. hahanya sabahan bah...
• 
  
• the third one.. i just can say that its just a teenage love affair.. hahaha..

n others2 yang i x mention.. they just want sex!!!. hurm...so the question here is.. who u really love? and do he/she loves u?.. n it depends on u to decide..nak sex or love?..
so it depends on the individual itself... the new r/ship i have now with a.e is more than a lover's r/ship.. its a r/ship built with trust n friendship.. we started as a friend haha. yaka?.. haha. adeh eh.. n i told nya that i am not loving u cos of sex .. n nya pun agreed.. nya pun x minat sex.. (serey!!).. haha.. lol..but i really hope my r/ship with a.e will last n x putus2 sampai bila2..

n i do not interested in sex juak.. if pelok n kiss is enough for me.. biarlah sex ya after marriage or with someone we really love.. bukan nya sebarangan.. heheh. okay!!.. okay jawapan saye saidin?..

Love is not beauty.
Love is not sex.
Beauty is formed in the eye of a loving beholder.
But itself cannot create love instead of lust.
Love is more than sex, and extends and exists beyond it;
And even better without it at times.

forever 21.. shop by outfits!!

pics are from http://www.forever21.com/

omg!!. i really like all the fashions from forever 21... hehe... hurm.. walaupun forever 21 xda at kch, i still can follow the trend from forever 21 rite??.. hehehe.. guys and gals!!. jom!!. be fashionable!!!..hehe.. me fashionable ka??.. haha..maybe kot.. hehehe.. still need to improve!!!.. if i had the chance to change my course i will prefer fashion designing!!